Ewwww...

So last night, around 3 in the morning, Joe suddenly hops up in bed and starts looking around.  I asked him what the heck he was doing and he said he felt something crawling on his neck.  We have quite a few little spiders in our house (mostly on our windowsills for some reason), so I told him that was probably it.  I get out of bed to go to the bathroom, and Joe calls me back and says "Not a spider!" and points down to my side of the bed, where a HUGE roach was walking.  AGGGGHHHH!  How disgusting is that!?!?  The bed is supposed to be a sacred, clean, and safe place.  How dare that nasty bug ruin that?!  Needless to say, Joe promptly killed it. I had to mentally psych myself into getting into bed again, without thinking something was going to crawl on me any second.  I just have to think that it was a freak accident that somehow he ended up in our bed.  Gross gross gross!  Needless to say, no more eating in bed from now on! Unfortunately, I just remembered that I made that rule, and I had already finished breakfast...in bed. 

In other less disgusting news, Emmy is quite fond of her hand.  She has a new favorite hobby of sticking her middle and ring fingers in her mouth and sucking quite loudly.  You can hear her smacking across the room.  It's quite cute, but I hope that it doesn't develop into a bad habit.  I think she's just excited that she can reach her hand to her mouth.  It keeps her busy for hours!  

I'm not sure what we're going to do once she gets too big for her bassinet.  I can't put her at the opposite end of the house, that's too far away and we'd have to keep the monitor on the entire night.  Plus, all of Joe's junk is in that room.  If we got rid of the love seat and that darned recliner, then she could fit.  But I wanted her to have a true baby room, one that we can decorate!  I guess we'll have to wait until we move into our own place... whenever that happens! 

Pray for us as we decide how to deal with Joe's job situation.  He's starting another slew of applications as we speak, so hopefully something will pan out.  

He interviewed for a police position out in Oklahoma.  He'll probably be offered the job, but honestly, I don't want to move there.  It would be wonderful being near Joe's family out there, but the town doesn't seem appealing, among other things.  I love the atmosphere in Columbia, and the kind of people.  Joe says, and I agree, that at some point we need to branch out, have a little adventure.  I just don't think Lawton, OK is the place for adventure.  Asheville would be an adventure... and it's not 1000 miles away!  If we did end up out there, I would probably live there on a month to month basis, coming home for long periods of time.  I know that going into with a bad attitude is making it worse, but I don't think that's where we're supposed to be.  I was thinking of our grandparents, how all of them are here.  They're not going to be around for too much longer, and we're going to leave them?  Joe's grandparents depend on him a lot of times to fix things, and all of their grandkids are out of town except for us, and we're considering leaving them?  That makes me so sad!      ... I don't want to move. 

If you haven't noticed, my writing style is pretty much stream of consciousness.  It may not make much sense sometimes, or go off in areas that you're not sure I should have branched into, but blogging for me is sort of therapeutic.  It gives me a chance to put my thoughts down in a sort of concrete, legitimate way.  I'm happy I started up again=)  I'm going to hop in the shower before the baby officially wakes up.  She's still content, sucking on that hand with her eyes closed.  Then, I need to walk the dog, and then it's lunchtime with Mom & Matt!